I have spent many years and have taken many classes to try to figure out what I will be when I grow up. I have been fortunate to have dabbled in many classes and workshops, to have read a plethora of inspiring, spiritual books and have come to realize that there is not always the perfect job or career that one must attain by a certain age. I worked for attorneys in my early twenties and one said that she and everyone should know what they’re meant to be by the age of twenty-seven. Well, when I reached and past the age of twenty-seven I still had no clue as to what I was “supposed to be doing.” For many years…let’s say decades, I have struggled to find my true calling, the perfect job, or where my mojo will just kick in to extra high gear. To say that it has been incredibly frustrating would be an understatement. To not have that Ah ha moment where I can say, “YES, this is what I was put on this earth to do!” has left me with a big question mark for far too long. My husband knew what he wanted to be when he grew up at the age of eight…EIGHT!
Before my fortieth birthday I just knew I would surely have figured out what my true purpose was…my fortieth came and went without the “answer.” Through all of these years I have tried many different hats in the job and career world and some have been good while others were just an experience. Some of us are taught that we should know what we want to do with our lives by the time we graduate from high school and for those who do, that is fabulous, but for those who don’t, I say it is just fine. I do not expect my children to know what they want to do the rest of their lives at eighteen. I do encourage their interests so that hopefully they will have a clue as to what they are truly passionate about and not what society expects them to be and like.
The first post that I wrote was on love. I believe love is our soul purpose and we are all uniquely gifted in our own way to express the way we show that love in whatever we do. That love does not necessarily have to be expressed in a job or career but just simply being who you are, where you are, in the moment. I have been taking classes for over a year towards becoming a practitioner of the Science of Mind and Spirit teachings, but felt drawn to try something different for now. I currently am volunteering with a hospice patient, just trained to work with differently abled children and adults using equine therapy, aka, horse therapy, and raising two awesome children. I am fortunate that I have the opportunity to try different paths that will (if it hasn’t already) lead me to who I will be when I grow up, maybe it will and maybe it won’t. I am trying to just be in the moment and trust that God/the Universe is leading me right where I am meant to be. I feel that our society puts so much pressure on having the perfect job or career at a particular age and if you don’t, you should feel bad about yourself. Well, I disagree with feeling bad about yourself. Just be yourself and do your best.
What will you be when you grow up? Have you already found your true calling where you are living and loving passionately what you are doing? Don’t be hard on yourself, eventually, we all end up right where we are meant to be. For some (self included) it’s just a longer journey, but all paths lead to exactly our right path. Your soul purpose is to love…just do that in whatever way feels right and brings you joy. You do not have to have a certain job title or career to be complete, you are already complete.
“Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” ~ Theodore Roosevelt
“As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.” ~ Audrey Hepburn
“We grow neither better nor worse as we get old, but more like ourselves.” ~ May Lamberton Becker